life

i am married but it aint all it is cracked up to be sex life is almost unheard of but trying to find ways to spice it up

why is my ex bugging me she turns around and called me yesterday and today

she told me she is sorry for what all was said when i told her the good news about my gf she said she does not care about my gf as a human she thinks it is all bull that we are faking things well she found out my gf is comming down next month to see me she is comming down to texas lol that is about the only good news i had all week

i now know why i am so tired during the day time it is because i don't hit rem sleep during the night
think about this your nazle passages are supose to be the size of a pincle eraser but mine are about the size of a pincle led so i have to breath out my mouth
then of course i have sleep apmea whitch stops my breathing during the night
i also wake up god knows how many times a night

everyone tells me life is worth living and worth every minute there was one time i did not agree with that. I wanted to give

After i lost amanda after the break up i was about to give up and not look for just a life alone

Nichole-
Because of u i now know it is worth every bit of it life is worth it all every minute every second life is now peace joy love and pain there are times u have to go throgh pain u are fighting your fears and u are also trying to lose your past to let go of old things for listening u will find that the gifts are more then u will ever know the connection grows daily i love u for everything
i vow to stay by your side in sickness and well throgh pain and pleasure
from now till the end of time
death will not keep me from your side

When u were born,
you cried and the world rejoiced
Live your life in such a way so that when u die,
the world cries and u rejoice
-Indian Proverb

why is it that everyone likes to say what u should and should not do in life i made my decisions and i don't care what anyone thinks about is

am i wrong to think that
or am i right

i finally found the one i keep her in my prayers she completes me cures me and keeps me in peace and joy i know she will never hurt me beat me or hit me
she has completed me totally she always knows what to say i was in darkness but she pulled me out again she is a christan lady with peace love and joy in her heart

she has shown me and helped me more then she knows she is my hero and will always be that she is the love of my life the joy in my world

she loves me and i love her we will never be separated

out of darkness into the light being blinded by trust thing i never felt knowing only sadness hurting and weak i was pulled out and shown the light scared from head to toe hurting from all the wounds that would never seem to close finding out what love trust joy and peace are i deside to stay out of the darkness that had once consumed me knowing who pulled me our and later hurt me still i feel no pain no regrets and no fear knowing that i am freed from pain and all the darkness i still search for the one the one that will make me whole

letting go is hard to do people don't always want to but for me it was i had to i had so much pain that it was stoping me from seeing the joy in the world

I had to give up all my past pain my dad all the people i lost and all the people i cared about

that way i can help the people i do care about still tho they all dont really know who they are

i have a friend that told me about this place i am here for finding friends i have more intrests but i did not want to list them all yet lol oh well everyone knows how to reach me if they want